Sorry my baby

Finally it has happened. I was dreading this day would come and it has come so soon. I have left my Baby to his day care center. Morning we cycled down to his daycare.He was in a good mood singing and showing me all the cars and telling the cars and plants" Helllllo!!" .After a while he became silent .So i spoke to him telling "Puthaa,gundu ,sweetie..... " Immediately he responded with "dada":) He wanted me to call him dada!!. Dada is called for elder person or brother in konkani. I don't call him that at all.
We were at the center at 9 :45am .He likes the colourful walls and many toys that they have .He was in fact playing with his shoe lace when I left him on the floor. Everything was fine until I was there but internally I guess he sensed that I will be leaving him soon. He was holding on to my hand tightly as soon as we went in side "dreumes" room (ie toddler).
I wanted to make a quite exit and not make a big deal out of it. After all I have been thinking about this since so many days. I will give him a hug and a kiss tell him that I will be there when he needs me, will come back before he knows it.Calm and Simple.
Well.... I couldn't do any of those :(I have to admit i was not brave enough to face him crying. When the child minder picked him up I felt like he was torn from me.My poor baby.. He was crying for me and dint understand why I was leaving him. I left that place as soon as possible and was also angry on myself for leaving him behind.

I have called the place two times in one hour .First time I called them he was still moaning and crying. They read him a story and took him out to play. The second time that I called , he was sleeping in the cot. I wish I had a permanent camera fixed there so that I could keep a watch and know that he is doing fine. until that happens I have to carry the guilt of leaving him .I am consoling myself that the people are nice,they have loads of books ,toys and the sand pit is just the place to play for hours together ,the play group kids are cute and not boisterous.Even though I am telling myself this the guilt is still troubling me. I hope my P will forgive me one day for it. Mamma is Sorry baby but mamma is going to make you favorite macaroni when you are back.

Sunny Sunday

Its a Perfect Sunday evening. I am sitting near my window, The sun is finally out after three days of rain.....My hubby is feeding my son mac and cheese, who btw is at his best behaviour.....In fact the cutest. He came and tugged at me telling me "amma hei lulul u ". which I guess was "amma love you" (or was that hello ??). aaaawwwww:)Keeping with the good feeling going, I spoke to my family back in India. They seem to take more vacation esp when Iam not around but I am happy that they are having a good time.

Its this feeling that I had which I wanted to share with you all. I dont feel it often. This kind of lazy contented dreamy hmmmmmm kind of feeling ?Is it the weather or is it the 10hr of undisturbed sleep that I had after probably 2 year's? Or I guess its all the busy schedules that fill up our weekdays to-Do list which leaves our sunday with Recharge-batteries!!.No I think it is spending time with my family which matters.Or could it be that I finally saw some sprouts in the flower bed even though giving up hope on it?whatever it is Iam Loving It!!Sundays are so special in so many ways.I never used to really appreciate them before cause it brings the dreaded Monday right behind it.Well If you ask me to pick my fav day now of the week its got to be Sunday. A day for doing and undoing and just being :)Wow thats Thank-God-its-Sunday for me.

Here's to having Sunday in our life.Would love to know if yu all feel the same way too.

yupppieeeesss!!

Hello world !! Such a nice feeling to finally start my blog.
Wow!! I had created a blog an year back but couldn't get myself to post even once!!!
Today I dint even sit for creating one and here you have it ....Fresh new BLOG. Hmm I guess its just me going on a roll today.

I wanted to make a daily note of my babe's growth and my experiences as a mommy.It has been such wonderful journey and if I don't make these little reminders online then I might forget over time.
OK Got to go now ,my baby just woke up...So the next post is when he sleeps soundly for a while:)
Wish me luck to keep the Posts coming.