Today I see you and get my strength. It's been two months since you startedswimimg . First day at pool, you had ran right out of the door and I was running behind you 9 month pregnant :-) It has got much better now. Infact I am so amazed at you.Each day you face your fear. As i write this post I see you stand there near the pool and I see you grow , into a man . In your mind fear is water and yet you stand at the edge of the pool and jump into it. You have taught me many things and the most to be brave ! Love you my boy ,you ARE my hero. Hey! Now you look at me and even managed a smile !!
I am so grateful to my parents who took you to your swimming class, even if it was rain and bad weather at times. Aai being Aai and pappa being pappa spoilt you rotten:) Making you sit on the cycle and Aai trying to feed you before your swim. You have by mistake bit her hand one time ...Ouch !!!
Come to think of it,my labour pains started right here, running in the heat and waiting at the swimming pool.I had felt the first contraction .
Baby G is here with me looking at you swim. Hope one day I see both of you swim and enjoying the water and have fun together .
Time to pack up and drive my kids back home.
Can you believe it's been ages since I started the blog and only three posts!!! Today I was reading my sister's post on her blog abt her son. Then I remembered I have one too:)
To update what's been happening in the past three years.
*My dear P has started school.
*He has become a big brother now !!
*We have moved two houses since. Leiden was nice but we learnt our lesson. Being in pretty house in beautiful location is just not our kind of thing I guess. We need people and noise and busy-ness and things to do.
*made new friends and cherishing the old ones.
*had a fantastic trip to the US with P.thanks to hubby dear for funding my shopping !!!
*very recently got back to driving car! (note to self:separate post on that)
Which brings me to reason why I am writing this post.
Three years back we came to NL and i want to piece togeather this roller coaster ride!!why now???Cause my parents just left for India yesterday after taking care of me and my baby.I am on my own now with two precious boys and ofcourse hubby dear is my rock ( when he is around;)).
Getting a giddy feeling that the ride has just(re)started. Here we go again !!
I have been procrastinating all these days to get to write a post.Today I Had to. The weather is the cause.
Being dragged into winter when summer did a hit and run . Its all too soon .Suddenly its got cold and chilly and windy . I'm having a helpless feeling trying to stop the winter on its way . Don't want the winter to start so soon .Seasons never waits I guess..... they just happen.
Just like my dear boy who has changed so suddenly .He is getting used to all the social gathering . He is in fact enjoying his daycare too. He doesn't seem in any hurry to leave the place when I go to pick him up.In fact when I used to leave him before , at least he used to cry a bit but since a couple of weeks , he does nothing of those sorts. He has learnt so many new words , I have lost count of them now.. ..surprises me all the time with his growing vocab and amazing sense of humour. My baby is growing up so quick and I think I'm going to miss this stage a lot. ho how nice it would be to have pause and replay buttons in our lives.
Finally it has happened. I was dreading this day would come and it has come so soon. I have left my Baby to his day care center. Morning we cycled down to his daycare.He was in a good mood singing and showing me all the cars and telling the cars and plants" Helllllo!!" .After a while he became silent .So i spoke to him telling "Puthaa,gundu ,sweetie..... " Immediately he responded with "dada":) He wanted me to call him dada!!. Dada is called for elder person or brother in konkani. I don't call him that at all. We were at the center at 9 :45am .He likes the colourful walls and many toys that they have .He was in fact playing with his shoe lace when I left him on the floor. Everything was fine until I was there but internally I guess he sensed that I will be leaving him soon. He was holding on to my hand tightly as soon as we went in side "dreumes" room (ie toddler). I wanted to make a quite exit and not make a big deal out of it. After all I have been thinking about this since so many days. I will give him a hug and a kiss tell him that I will be there when he needs me, will come back before he knows it.Calm and Simple. Well.... I couldn't do any of those :(I have to admit i was not brave enough to face him crying. When the child minder picked him up I felt like he was torn from me.My poor baby.. He was crying for me and dint understand why I was leaving him. I left that place as soon as possible and was also angry on myself for leaving him behind.
I have called the place two times in one hour .First time I called them he was still moaning and crying. They read him a story and took him out to play. The second time that I called , he was sleeping in the cot. I wish I had a permanent camera fixed there so that I could keep a watch and know that he is doing fine. until that happens I have to carry the guilt of leaving him .I am consoling myself that the people are nice,they have loads of books ,toys and the sand pit is just the place to play for hours together ,the play group kids are cute and not boisterous.Even though I am telling myself this the guilt is still troubling me. I hope my P will forgive me one day for it. Mamma is Sorry baby but mamma is going to make you favorite macaroni when you are back.
Its a Perfect Sunday evening. I am sitting near my window, The sun is finally out after three days of rain.....My hubby is feeding my son mac and cheese, who btw is at his best behaviour.....In fact the cutest. He came and tugged at me telling me "ammaheilulul u ". which I guess was "amma love you" (or was that hello ??). aaaawwwww:)Keeping with the good feeling going, I spoke to my family back in India. They seem to take more vacation esp when Iam not around but I am happy that they are having a good time.
Its this feeling that I had which I wanted to share with you all. I dont feel it often. This kind of lazy contented dreamy hmmmmmm kind of feeling ?Is it the weather or is it the 10hr of undisturbed sleep that I had after probably 2 year's? Or I guess its all the busy schedules that fill up our weekdays to-Do list which leaves our sunday with Recharge-batteries!!.No I think it is spending time with my family which matters.Or could it be that I finally saw some sprouts in the flower bed even though giving up hope on it?whatever it is Iam Loving It!!Sundays are so special in so many ways.I never used to really appreciate them before cause it brings the dreaded Monday right behind it.Well If you ask me to pick my fav day now of the week its got to be Sunday. A day for doing and undoing and just being :)Wow thats Thank-God-its-Sunday for me.
Here's to having Sunday in our life.Would love to know if yu all feel the same way too.
Hello world !! Such a nice feeling to finally start my blog. Wow!! I had created a blog an year back but couldn't get myself to post even once!!! Today I dint even sit for creating one and here you have it ....Fresh new BLOG. Hmm I guess its just me going on a roll today.
I wanted to make a daily note of my babe's growth and my experiences as a mommy.It has been such wonderful journey and if I don't make these little reminders online then I might forget over time. OK Got to go now ,my baby just woke up...So the next post is when he sleeps soundly for a while:) Wish me luck to keep the Posts coming.
I am a 30 something woman who is on a journey to discover herself. At any given time I can be good or bad,right or wrong ,generous or calculative ,free spirited or hard nosed ,thoughtful or talkative ,rich or needy ,loving or hating ,idealistic or giving way,clingy or independent. I love life and want this blog to document my everyday trials and triumphs in life.